Blue Blessings Dressing 11:40 PM

I feel so lucky because among these zillions people living in this planet, I found you.

photo by : Rizeki Raharja Artwork and Photography

Life in A Day 2:13 AM

There are a lot of negative things in this world.

Poverty. Illegal Logging. War. Corruption. Hatred. Cancer. Extinction. Disaster. Murder. Deforestation.  Disease. Illiteracy. Unemployment. Discrimination. Heartache. You name it.

Those things, sometimes, make it difficult for me to believe that this world is actually a beautiful place to live in. Sometimes I feel skeptical, because although I know that a lot of people is actually trying to do a lot of beautiful things to make it more condusive for us to live in, the negativity just feel endless and positivity just feel hopeless.
I wonder what I can do to help. I wonder whether one person, really, can make a difference. I wonder if it's already to late for us, humankind, to change.

My mom always said that nothing is ever too late. She always said that we should be the change we want to see in the world. And change can mean a lot of things.

She always said that I am a lucky girl. That I should be thankful for being able to live in prosperity and peace. She said that my life is luxurios. Because I can afford medical care; I can eat three times a day, sometimes more; I can sleep in a solid house with a comfortable spring bed. And that I should share a little bit of everything I have. Everyone should.

My mom is the best women I ever met in life. She is outstanding and beyond. And for her I dedicate this day, the International Women's Day.

And for this world and the negativities within, I want to ask all of you who (happens) to read this to believe in one thing :
OUR GENERATION IS THE GENERATION OF CHANGE WHO WILL BE THE ONE TO MAKE OUR WORLD A BEAUTIFUL PLACE FOR US TO LIVE IN AND ALSO FOR THE GENERATION NEXT TO COME.

Current 5:04 AM

I have moved to Bali. I have been here for 2,5 weeks, And I have worked at Kasih Ibu General Hospital in Denpasar for 8 days.
I'm starting a new chapter here. Knowing nobody but my fiancee. Having nothing but guts. And just trying to make everything works.
I haven't felt comfortable yet. I haven't felt accepted and adapted yet. And, most importantly, I haven't felt like I belong here. I don't know why, but I can hardly see the charm of Bali right now.
The only best part is... I am no longer in a long distance relationship (finally...after 6 years...)

Anyway, I miss my mom. :(

Wedding Planning 5:13 AM

We met 6 years ago. Just once. But cupid played his role, and we fell in love. We still do.

I used to not belive in love at first sight. Little did I know, that would be how I got my soulmate.

I was travelling with my girlfriends to Jogjakarta. I invited one of my old friend to hangout with us one night, her name is Aphrodhite. She, then, invited one of her bestfriend to join us and be our guide. The bestfriend... now become my fiancee.
I only spent three hours with him that night, because we should continue our travel to another city right away. That three hours was enough.
We continued to be in touch with one another. And short after, we decided to be a couple despite the long-distance.

The long distance relationship fueled with love, passion, tenacity, commitment, trust, the will to make it work, and a lot of other things, finally paid of.

I am happy to announce that WE ARE GETTING MARRIED. haha.
Wish us the best of luck, please... :)

생일 축하합니다 12:41 AM

Yesterday was my birthday. It was a very dull, awful, and disapointing day. I was far away from hometown because I still had to work and went to the hospital. The day started pitifully since I had no breakfast preapared and I woke up late, so I was in a rush and I skipped my precious breakfast. My boyfriend didn't even remember that it was my birthday (until I reminded him, and he was totally shocked #sigh).
At work, duty called. There were four surgeries scheduled for me, which was much more than usual. I stayed in the OR until 3pm. I was exhausted and went straight home.
At home I was alone, eating alone, talking to myself, and feeling sorry to myself. It felt awful and depressing. #sigh

 

Anywayyyyyy.... My boyfriend sent me an apology-video. hehe. It was heart-melting :p

Sincere Soul 5:25 AM

I've been thinking. And then I came to a conclusion. That, nowadays, all we care about is our Appearance, or Image, or Outer-look.
And, that, because our mind is too consumed by our Self-Outerimage, we failed to see what really matters. We forget to acknowledge human-kind's attractiveness. Sincere soul.

Photos by : Rizeki Raharja Artwork & Photography

Right Now. 9:30 AM

Right now, when you block someone from your FB account because you feel insecure by their exsistance, that exact person doesn't even know you're there.

Right now, when you blame someone for making your life miserable, that exact person is trying their hardest to fix their mistakes.

Right now, when you sweat small stuffs to someone you love, that exact person is making bigger steps in the proccess.

Right now, when you decided to let a love go by, that love is finding someone better than you.

Right now, when you start a war, someone just wish the world peace in earnest.

Right now, when you complain about being single, someone you haven't met is looking for someone exactly like you.

Right now, when you think your life is a huge giant mess, someone doesnt even have a house.

Right now, when you're busy ratting your friends, someone feels deeply sorry to lose one.

Right now, when you're tweeting trash about your mom, someone misses theirs.

Right now, when you're yelling to your dad, someone loses theirs.

Right now, when you club, the world loses another tree.

Right now, when you hate your life, someone dies.

Right now, someone is believing the impossible, curing the incurable, overcoming the insurmountable. So, stop using your time complaining about things you don't have. Start being grateful and make a move. Because this world is bigger than you.